Thursday, September 06, 2012

Notes in Her Lunchbox

School has started and we're doing pretty well for the most part. A new school is always a nerve wracking undertaking. But Elspeth Peace is LOVING her some kindergarten! I knew she would eventually. I am delighted to see that she is actually conscious that she loves it and eager to go at every moment of every day- I picked her up last Monday for ballet and she was already cheering " I want more school!" before we even got on the interstate! She loves ballet and she loved preschool, but she would sometimes stubbornly say she didn't. Not so with school, she'd shout it from the rooftops if I'd let her!

Amabel Grace, in her quiet, courageous way, is always up for anything. She internalizes every feeling, so I often worry that she and I will have issues to sort through long into her adulthood (read: I have no idea what ways I am [or life is] daily damaging her). She is such an amazing person. Really. I  don't think I will ever have her poise or grace. She's a class act, that one! But she's also a preteen. And that means, at home, she's moody with a capital M-O-O-D-Y. But again, feelings are internalized, so I have no idea what about. I know we girls don't always have anything we're moody about, but when it's me, as you know, I will tell you all eighty eleven things it might be just so you're clear. She just trucks along, saying everything is fine, but seeming like nothing is. On the other hand, no one but me would notice that, so I shouldn't make a big deal out of it. Adolescence is awful. It just is.

One thing my darling girl struggles with is perfectionism. A lot of us do, I imagine. I recently read a blog post from one of the college aged girls from our church who is serving as a missionary in Africa right now. She and one other girl, neither of whom are yet twenty, are house moms to thirteen African children.  Naturally, the first taste of motherhood has been overwhelming. In a beautifully written post, she addressed each challenge (being a mom to a crying infant, being a mom to a grouchy teenager, being a mom to a sick four year old, etc.) noted her complete inadequacy and responded with "his grace is sufficient." It was really so lovely to read, but I didn't ask her permission to share, so my description will have to suffice. The point is, this little college girl encouraged me about motherhood. And, more importantly, she gave me a way to encourage the girl I am trying to mother, my girl who seems so burdened with her mistakes and shortcomings and imperfections (all mild, mind you) and so determined to be Superlady that she hasn't noticed she already is.

The note in her lunchbox read:
"But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me." - II Corinthians 12:9

I gave her a magnet with it to hang it in her locker. And the rest of the passage will come at a later time:

"For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities [if the doesn't sound like junior high school....!] For when I am weak, then I am strong."
- II Corinthians 12:10

I didn't know who else this might encourage today- who else is feeling lost or inadequate or longing for that thorn in the flesh to leave. I reckon that's all of us! Whatever you have going on, whatever the task or situation before you, his grace is sufficient.

1 comment:

Rebecca said...

Encouraged me. Perfect timing too. Thank you, Abby.

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